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Wednesday, September 03, 2008

an issue arise due to words of anger. have you ever come across your mind, yes.. the person provoke you but please recall.. it's someone you once love deeply for. recall every event with her, recall every single thing she did for you and recall her effort and your effort to maintain the relationship for so long? to classify disgraceful, aint you also being disgraceful for being with her for so long? OR think over.. is disgraceful too strong a word to use? A relationship, be it the past or present, at the very moment you're loving the person, you love with no condition. To regret, you could only blame yourself for loving the wrong person. After all, it was your own responsibility to 'accept' the person you'd a relationship with.

i hold respondsibility for my relationship. never once felt disgraceful on any of my ex regardless im well treated or not. I always believe (or maybe lie to myself) that im really once deeply loved. It's for you to define am I worth loving and not for you to doubt. the first one make me know what's pampering, what's jealousy, what's the feel of being love. the second one make me know what's love and be love, what's happiness, what's endless pampering, what's endless giving in, what's attitude, what's temper, what's sacrifices, what's giving up everything just for the one you love. As a gf, i gave all out to love and protect my love. i hold on to my love. i tried to be fair. i believe in the trust given, and hold tight to the trust in my relationship. It's all coz of love... make me who i am now. Be it, better or worse. =)

Once said, if my love betray the trust I gave, that will be hell. come to a point, whatever said and done, isn't just a simple 'sorry' everything can be simply resolve. human take time to forget. and it's time that allow the wound to cure but scar will remain forever.

im getting really tired.. tired of everything.... sch.. work.. bla bla bla... not enough time for myself.. not enough time for my darling frenz.. not enough. =( my body is protesting for a long break.. how i wish i have.. but my leaves.. seems to be for the sake of exam. -_-

at the same time.. im enjoying.. enjoying the moment with mrs lim and sunzi. enjoying all the craps and past event brought up again and again in our conversations that made us laugh out loud. enjoying mummy michelle's bday celebration. enjoying the gfs meet up. enjoying the ladies meet up. enjoying moment spend with mr. irritant. i cherish the moment we bond together.

next to come. i wana meet my b.itch. my aiai. my kor. nasty. nikki and jean gfs. lao da and lao san ladies again again. beloved mrs lim and sunzi. by the way... shu hui too. been some time ever since i last saw her... hmMMm..

going forward... a lot of event to come by. my birthday, mr. irritant's birthday, nasty's birthday, nikki's birthday, sunzi's birthday, blablablablablabla.

shall i make a wish, make a wish.... wishing for my wonderfull friends to give me the ever most wonderful gifts.. haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:26 PM