+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Friday, March 31, 2006

a successful lady coming soon.

working everyday.. free day is family day.. yeah..

im being selected to sign on contract with citibank. pay is attractive.. but still.. i have to save to become a successful lady. haha.

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dear frenz.. im getting on well now.. and.. i will carry on to be WELL.. dun worry alright? grins.

to him: i duno will you be reading this.. if so... yeapz. =) reporting for NS soon right? hope that we will meet up before your ns?? at least.. we are still frenz.. right? =)

zhen: yesh. i wun take up a lot of time to find a new one. haha. but see how fate goes ba. i believe im still very wanted de. haha. opps. =x no la... trying to concentrate on work first.. relationship.. still long way to go la.. heex.

oh my. i got no place to slp sia.. my brother occupied my bed.. my sister occupied my spare bed.. and i sleep on the floor? haha. i shall wait for them to wake up den since they should be waking up for school soon.. by the way, it's because my dad's frenz came to visit us, that's why my sis and bro is sleeping in my room.

just came back from work actually.. suppose to end at 2am.. but went out with my frenz for a drink. talk alot. joke alot. learn alot. yesh. no longer can stay to be a xiao mei mei le. time to grow up and adpat to the adult world.

enjoy my life to the fullest!!! =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:17 AM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:52 PM

我代你哭

where's the one who will cry for me?

hmmm.. it's another day. work at 11pm.

i believe.. wat jess said is right bah.. i need to help myself instead. i will jia you de. =)

looking at those photos.. seems like... i really need to release myself from all these le. why he can enjoy himself so much yet im here feeling so miserable? no need ma.. i got my way of living too. i can enjoy myself with my frenz too. so... wat's the main problem? the ego me that fang bu xia?

perharps.. i really should not stay at the same point le. i really should move on le. for my future. for the next right one. carry on. that's the way ba.

this is den the original maine. the one always having a smile on her face.

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:43 PM

mei you wo, zhen de wu suo wei ma?

another typical emotional night. i just came home from work. tired yet... i cant slp.

someone seems to enjoy his life so much, while im here suffering because of him. how pathetic i can be.

generally.. i dun wish to say anything else anymore. but i just cant help it. in the middle of the night.. the pathetic me got no one to turn to except my blog?

i dun understand why cant i just stay strong? i dun understand why cant i just dun think about it anymore? maine. it's all over! stop thinking and bothering about it. but yet.... why cant i do it? simply coz this is love? true love? no..... it's just a game. wake me up pls. im truly awake and know that the game had ended. yet... what am i wishing and hoping for? for him to turn back and look at me? for him to turn back and ask for me? for him to turn back and realise im the one? pathetic maine. impossible means impossible. UNDERSTOOD!

yesh. understood. i dun wish to be so pathetic anymore. save me from hell. help me pls. anyone?

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:00 AM

Friday, March 24, 2006

yeah. i got my new lappy. been enjoying all the shows I have in my hard disk. and.. i dun have enough rest bcoz of those shows. haha. =x

work occupied almost all my time. hardly have time to go out with friends. time is always not very right to go out but yet.. someone make some time for me still. haha. you are the cutest alright! =) da ge ge.. you are the best. =) and thanks for teaching me so much. oh my.. i simply feel that the piggy look so much like you lor! opps..!

i really miss school life. miss sombo. miss jane. miss lao da. miss gal. miss jess. miss zhen. miss robin. miss kenneth. miss nicholas. miss ah gong. miss gong gong. miss HR classes. miss SM classes. miss MA classes. miss 3D classes. miss FYP. miss all the facS. school life.. how wonderful. =)

to all: i really miss everyone of you. i will try to take good care of myself ya. you all must take good care too alright?

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:56 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

WORK!

liming. im working at millenia tower. somewhere near marina square.

aiai. my off day on wed. date me out pls. haha. =)

gal. i never wanted to let go. but guess i have no choice? bgr is a super retarded thingy to fan about. im going to concentrate on my career le. be it.. im going to be single when im 30s. haha. work is the best way to numb myself from the memories. i wished so much not to be so affected, but since that im already so affected... allow me to continue to numb myself. i will be tired. but i rather to be tired den to think about it. holding on to something that wasnt mine.. it's miserable. and thx to the person who made me so miserable. i made the choice to be happy.. and i will work hard to be happy. =) contact you asap k. =) drink more water.. and take good care of yourself pls! ahem.

yesh. just finish with my work and im busy with work recently. i can be very relax de... but i choose to tied myself up with work. night shifts all the way. i dun care. tat's the only way to make myself numb and tired.

i think im going to get scolding soon. no meals. no sleep. that's my life now. facing the same old problem again. gastric pain till i have no appetite at all. cant slp well. ARGH! im trying hard to be healthy.. but.. i just cannot make it. -_- biscuits is my meals... and plenty of plain water. i got no idea... wat else can keep me going anymore.

wishes are lies... i no longer believe in wishes anymore.

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:12 AM

Friday, March 17, 2006

the process of growing up

jess, zhen and gal. inform you all my off day soon k.. please make that day available for me!

aiai. you never arrange a day with me. sob sob.

very tired recently. due to work and partly, personal stuff bah. colleagues are interesting and are nice people. though duno about my problems, but they will cheer me up whenever im feeling too emotional or down. cute right?

i should be glad to have a clown at home. im refering to my sister. im crying while listening to sentimental song and she can use that song to make me laugh by doing stupid action. sometimes, a hug is more than enough to console someone who is crying. the shoulder to lie on will always be there... tat's what family are for. =)

i should also be glad to have a understanding dad. he asked me not to think too much and concentrate on 'earning money'. though it sound like he's asking me to earn more and give him all.. but his intention to me is.. work more, think less. =)

relationship is not the main source of a person life. though there's hurt, there will also be people who will or intend to heal you with all their means.

be glad that im still the princess that they wanted to protect.

it's time to grow up.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:30 AM

happy birthday.. the special one.

i wish i dun remember. but too bad, i remembered. happy 21st birthday. =)

i recalled my 20th birthday, the special one agreed to pei me old. i bet... the promise or not even a promise.. wun come true.

i will.. pei you old... provided you want. =) but i doubt so.

forgive me. the last time im going to cry or blog about you.

serving ns soon le. i cant imagine when will be the next time i'll be seeing you again.

taking 171 to work and home everyday. i wish i dun remember what had happened in the past.

the bus stop outside wisma. you used to accompany me to wait for my bus. the blurie you who duno how to walk back to mrt station. the silly you who suddenly forgot my hp. no.

kinokuniya. the place we shared our thoughts on certain books. be it, comics or chinese novel. read more storybook will improve english? haha.

PS escalator. where you said you wanted to be my safety belt so that i wouldn't fall down or trip down anymore.

cinemas. where we almost spent 1/2 of the time together watching movie. the first time a guy bring me to watch a M18 show. how pai seh you are and i am. how boring can 'april snow' be. how touching 'harry potter' can be. how scary can those horrible movie be.

marche. where we had my birthday feast. the same food you ordered. where i join you with your friends gathering. how you tease me and how shy am i.

memories. im going to lock it up.

thanks for the memories that you and i created.

im going to smile whenever i think of them.
im not going to cry anymore.

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all the best in your future.
all the best in career.
all the best in relationship.
all the best in friendship.
all the best in EVERYTHING.
may all your wishes come true.

take care. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:10 AM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

attention to ALL. haha

mr sombo. you din call me on monday. you said i will receive your sms or call de!! but i never!! ahem. your 'bao bei' is angry le. hmpf! haha.

gal and dearest 'lao da'. work is fun.. join join? haha..

nicholas. thanks small boy. im okie le. wun think so much and wun worry you with my weird behavior le. =)

jess, zhen and gal. when's our FYP team gathering? kkKKkkkkkk?

aiai. miss you a lot a lot... grad le rite? meet up asap!! arrange time with me k? i take off specially for you. haha.

darling mei. of coz.. YOU my dearest! work is so 'not interesting' without you. sob. i want to see you. miss you dearly!!

special someone. haha. like my outfit? haha. too mature. i dun like lei. ahem. so near yet so far. pls date me out often k.. since your work place is so near to mine.. lunch date.. after work date.. weekend date.. IM WAITING. haha. =x

special request from my little sis. clubbing on thur? haha. seriously, i duno wat kiddish clothing you are going to wear. haha. =x

sihui. so.. your dressing? polo tshirt and fbt short? haha. =x

to those who are worried about me. im okie le. seriously okie le. life still carries on. and im leading it well i guess. =) so... dun worry alright? =)

my sis is nagging me to offline le. i just reach home and i haven bath yet. haha.

tata~ will be back to post more. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:06 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

this is what you want isnt it?

- treat as if nothing ever happened before.

=)

i accept the fact from the moment i delete the photo away from friendster.

the game ended. im just a toy being fool around.

game over.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:58 PM

time for some updates ya.

well, life had been... rotting at home everyday. so yeapx.. someone date me out pls.. gal.. im waiting for you to date me out. haha. i wana go pa tor, but no one for me to pa tor with. haha. the potential one.. is not there anymore.

rotting at home.. advantages are.. able to rest.. able to sleep more.. able to be lazy.. able to have free time for myself. disadvantages are.. tend to think too much.. isolate myself.. self reflection.. make myself super sad.. recall!!

that's explain why i took up any jobs that are available for me. haha. kind of silly to make myself super busy so that i wun think so much.. but.. yeapx.. that's the only way?

was about to slp last night while leaving my radio ON. just in the middle of the night.. i heard this super old song and make me super AWAKE! what the hell.. im about to slp and free my mind from thinking le lei.. and im super affected by that particular song. -_- bringing me back to my secondary school life.. using pager.. and leaving voicemail. wat sia! haha. funny yet saddening. i will never ever forget singing into ppl's voicemail... tat's lame. arGh~ dun mention it anymore!

the unexpected person always did something that you will never expect him/her to do so.

the more you hope for. the more you will never get what you 'hope' for.

that's how disappointment came in.

the girl that everyone wishes to protect.. but why din he protect?

ARGH!!

not going to think about it now... going for prac le.... =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:22 PM

Libra Woman

Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. ~~She has a nice smooth skin and a good figure.~~ [define it? i dont have it. haha.] She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man. Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated in any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very well in all cases.

She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She likes to dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she can tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. She can change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure. Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand or else you might get smack!

Yes. im a libra woman. the most 'wanted' zodiac. haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:18 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

i just realised.. someone.. hacked into my friendster account and anyhow accept my testimonial!! wat sia!! no respect of me!!

im going to kill that evil devil!!! dun care!!! haha.

be it.. is there a treat or not, part of my heart still belong to someone else. it's the fact that it wouldn't be change for now.

i dun deny the fact that how disappointed am i.. i dun deny the fact that im not the princess he wants to adore. and i dun deny the fact that IM NOT THE ONE. what sia... dun pressurise me!!!

i just wana be myself back. though i noe.. im not allowed to be stupid anymore. but dun pressurise me can!!!!!!!!!! i just wana be myself. i need my freedom. i need my time. i dun lyk to report to anyone. i dun lyk!! let me be... can!!

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:00 PM