+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Saturday, August 26, 2006

im missing out alot isnt it?

all trainings fault. had 2 weeks of honeymoon.. and it's ending today.

updates.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING!
my dearest. my mrs lim. hope she enjoyed herself to the fullest and like the presents for her. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALAN PEI PEI!
we are awaiting to attend lao da and your rom/wedding dinner wor. haha.

TAKE CARE MAINE!
im sick for 2 whole weeks lor. ahem

well.. im currently not in the mood to blog. shall be back to blog more den. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:20 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

wo zhen de lei le.

it happened again.

and i did cry out loud.

why didnt you think it over?
you will never scold me in the past.
you will never just leave me alone.
you will never just dont care about me and walk of.

but now,
you did everything that you never did before.

all you said is, i shld not be unreasonable anymore coz im 'not young' already. be it how old am i, my temper is still like this. be it im selfish enough, im the one expecting others to give in to me. moreover, you are not others.

.............

now, i dun even noe why i work so hard.
it make me feeling silly and idiot.

i thought it will be great going to work and finish work together. i thought you will be less tired coz i can send you to work. so... seeing each other everyday seems to bored you.

i felt not appreciated.
i felt disappointed.
i felt sad.
i felt tired.

and im working hard for my oversea trip with you, as well as being able to have a more comfy life instead of burget everyday. but... i seems to be the only work working hard for it. and im feeling reluctant to do so anymore.

it seems to be proven that without me, you will be happier. enjoying your work and collegues there to accompany you to watch fireworks when im tied down with 'no choice' dinner to attend. eating with them when im alone waiting for you to 'instruct' me where to go and what to do. without me isnt it better?

had i made the wrong move? would you be better with her instead of me?

i begin to ponder again. all negative conclusion. im losing faith in this relationship. losing faith in the love you had for me. was it love or just habit? you cant differeniate anymore. and.... im really tired le.

history repeats.
what goes around comes around.
karma.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:47 PM

i am being scolded again due to my fucking unreasonable attitude.

you said you wun scold me again,
but yet,
you did it again.

i lost my card. but im not crying over my lost card.

been crying before going to bath and after bathe.

the reason being.. im being scolded by you again.

nevertheless, i seems to be the one always at fault. you are the only one that can be tired. you are the one that work hard to earn more.

whatever i do is not being recognised.
whatever i said is not being listened.
whatever temper i throw is unreasonable.

so what else shld i say?

keep quiet den.

to you,
im always unreasonable.

you are the one that said you are hungry and i accompany you to eat. i said im not hungry le but you say if i dun eat den you also dun wana eat. and what shall i do? starve you or eat with you? in the end, im the one eating the most.

your mindset is not hungry. you just wana try that rest.

and again, i stuff with all the leftover food till im so full and feel like vomitting, i threw temper and there you go again scolding me unreasonable. den be it bah.. im forever unreasonable. forever no limit.

and....
things aint the same like before.

im speechless again.
and im heart broken again.

no longer treated like a princess.
but i treated you like a prince by providing you with everything i can.
and...
im not being understand by you at all.

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:02 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

happy birthday to my dearest daddy.

the man who looks after me for the past 20 plus years and still on going.

the man who provides me with everything i want.

the man who save the best for me.

the man who give in to me everytime.

the man who tolerate my unreasonable attitude.

the man who will continue to be by my side always and forever.

the man who treated me as a princess.

the man who spoilt me.

the man who listen to me.

the man who cheers me up when im in bad mood.

the man who enlighten my thinking of future.

the man who used to hit me when im naughty yet cry at the back as he felt hurt hiting his princess.

the man who stop punishing me coz he felt that im mature enough to think.

the man who throw temper to mummy when he is in bad mood. but his princess just throw temper back at him and he is scared. haha.

the man who love me more den anyone else.

the man is none other than.....

MY DADDY!!

happy happy birthday. =)

muAckz.

i swear to love him forever.
i swear to look after him forever.
as he is my dad,
im his unreasonable, stubborn princess~!

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:59 AM

happy 40th months anniversary.

if nth goes wrong, today supposed to be the 40th mth. which indicate.. it's 3 years and 4 months.

wah... consider long ma?

anyway, still.. the same old things again.

thanks for being there.
thanks for everything.

though you had been throwing temper to me recently and not giving in to me, i love you still. ahem.

but still,
i demand you to STOP throwing temper on me.
i demand you to GIVE in to me.

I DONT CARE~~!!

you were the one who spoilt me. I DONT CARE!!

i mean it. coz i dont want you to throw temper at me. be it im unreasonable. but that's who i am when you know me, isnt it?

if happens.. there's a next time.. i will really cry out loud and off you go to look for that "guai little gal".

I MEAN IT.

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:53 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

so.. who comes to your mind first?

There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more.

Someone taught him. Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :

"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.

Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :

"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?"

The one you think of is also someone you love.

If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.In life, there are more sorrows than happiness.

There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.

If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.

In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.But it shouldn't stop there.

If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.

Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.

If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:57 PM

i begin to ponder.

what's right; what's wrong?
who's right; who's wrong?

and the conclusion after hours...
nothing.

and reason of thinking so much...
dont know.

and the feeling i have now...
confusion.

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:51 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

ZHIJIAN ON FIRE!!

that's super scary. and pls. a gentle reminder, no cream and no spray on my birthday!!

i will let you all sabo but no cream and no spray pls. I BEG YOU!! ^_-

anyway, shall briefly explain what happened.

went for mr ma zhijian's birthday yest. everything suppose to turn out fine. family, relatives, poly frenz, best buddy, clubbing clinque and almost all turned up. even his gf who is always so shy to meet us also turned up. it's almost a perfect and happening birthday. though mr ma neglected us for his poly frenz. AHEM.

bbq, superband finals, beehoon, gossip, chats, wishes. time for the birthday song together with his mango cake. after his birthday song, while he is blowing the candles, his poly frenz smash him with plates full of cream and spray at him when the candle is still not blown off. full of laughter, screaming, cheering and out of the sudden, zhijian is on fire. THE REASON BEHIND: the fire on the candle had not been blown off yet and he is full of cream(which contain "oil") and the spray that they used to spray at him "blow" the fire to zhijian. and ta-dah, mr ma on fire!

everyone got a shock, especially zhijian's parent, gf and relatives. nevertheless, the naughty bunch that sabo him and US.

that's horrible lor. his whole head, whole face and hand on fire. but just glad that it's not a very big fire. soon being put off by his frenz who sabo him. they hit his head, throw him with tower and bring him to the toilet and splash water at him.

soon after the fire is "put off", his face is superly red. we advice him to consult the doctor, so he went to a nearby clinic. meanwhile, his mum was so worried for him and keep grumbling that they shld not play until like this and stuff.. and while, his poly frenz were there, girls crying.. guys.. eh.. guilty i suppose?

well, in my case, i felt that it's okie to sabo, but not in front of adults. but they played in front of adults and such accident happened. imagine how zhijian's parent and relatives going to think about his frenz? OMG~~

but it's really dangerous sia.. imagine if the fire cannot be controlled, there goes zhijian sia.. horrible.. but well, shall be glad that nth happens and zhijian is okie.

headed to work today when i only have less den 2 hours slp. TIRED! but no choice. i wana earn money! haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:51 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

off day outing

i woke baby up from his nightmare. he was making some weird weird noise, so i woke him up. he gave me a look whereby he is so afraid of something. after waking him up, he told me he had a nightmare and dun dare to slp after that. so i watched him slp first den. in the end, he is now sleeping again and i cant get to slp. arGh

duno what had happened to him recently.. he keep dreaming of things. weird. maybe too tired and too stress up le ba~ i guess.. im giving him too much stress. opps. sorry. but still.. i wana him to grow up and learn how to think.

i believe that person shld be "okie" le ba~
as said, he/she dun really love him/her ma.
so, why shld everyone get so worried over him/her?
duh~

went sentosa today. i was very tired actually, but baby was so excited to go, so.. i drag myself there. i got to wear my newly bought bikini. heex.

after sentosa, headed to bugis for dinner. baby was super super hungry and he ate 2 bowls of rice. ah ching meet us after his work. 2 buddy gossiping the moment they met each other. buay tahan. -_-

walked around bugis and got myself a bermz. looking punk. i like! haha. and i realised.. spore gals are too small in size. bugis street is selling all SMALL and FREE size clothes. HELLO! i cannot wear. i dun wan big boobs, neither do i want big hips. but i just have it all.. so, NOT FAIR~!

after bugis, it was ktv session. dear's all time favourite. he just love to sing so much even though some of the song he duno how to sing, he will still anyhow sing.

my darling is sick. aiyoyo. MRS LIM, pls take good care of yourself. eat more, drink more. dun let naughty students make you fall sick ma.. on your way to NIE! JiA yOu k? =) muackz.. you are badly missed by me!! and your students shld call me MRS NEO! coz im your forever MRS NEO~!

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:57 AM

quarrel defininately not the best way to solve prob.

sleep and hack is the best way.

that's what he is doing now.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:32 AM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

spare me from that. im breaking down soon. so tired!!~~

went over to baby's place after work for mahjong session. we won~! heex. but im very tired. was totally too exhausted to have the mood to work, but i still came to work in the end. responsibility is the word. haha.

earning as much as i can. i wana go for holiday during october. that's fall on my big day. im going to celebrate my birthday with my family and friends first than off i go for my holidays. of coz, my dear will accompany for the trip and how i wish my ladies and darling can go too...~~ soBz.

oh.. noe what.. my ladies are so sweet.. they just bought fries for me.. yummy.. poor ladies gotta do endless OTs everyday.. but well, earn more k? we go holiday.. holiday!!

okie.. im going to start designing soon. baby has been complaining that he want to change a new blog skin. hmmm.. no ideas now lei. im still thinking. hMmm..

my darling is so ke lian. she got endless stuff to do. naughty students to teach. poor health to take care. poor little gal. JIA YOU~~ all the way to your NIE!~ it used to be my dream and you are going to fufill it for me ya. =) meanwhile, pls do take good care of yourself my darling~~~!!

oh no.. my dear.. when are you ever gonna meet me and take back your vcd? you bloodly idiot put me aeroplane. idiot idiot!! say wana meet also never meet. another typical busy person. got endless work to do sia. and left poor maine behind. sob!!

im having my break time now. playing with january. haha. typical gals schools GALS! we are gossiping all the way.. haha..

will be back to blog more.. i go refill water first.. thirsty.... -_-

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:56 PM