+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Friday, May 30, 2008

pissed by JC! liar liar!! hmpf.

*your tubby would like to tell you that she is angry with you.

ROARS!

but.. for the sake of the 12 stalks of purple roses. forgive you la. poots!

thanks for the roses. STUPID RETARD JC!

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:05 AM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

enjoyable and fun day with nikki 'DARLING'!

LOVES LOT!

happy. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:14 AM

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

hungry hungry!!

im so hungry!!

mrs lim is back... IM SO HAPPY!!

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:46 PM

when my heart was aching for my past and the hurt..

den.. i came across jc's blog for me. i smile.. with my tears rolling down non stop.

the songs from JC to CL. I listen to all 23 songs, crying.
the post from JC to CL. I read again and again, crying.

my tears.. roll for my tubby. =) thanks for the unconditional love.

i simply duno how to describe the feeling i had now.

other than appreciating.. JC, loves truly. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:15 AM

i am tired.

tired of everything.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:54 AM

Monday, May 26, 2008

my vitamin provider.. i think i need some happy pill.. pls prescribe to me... thanks.

i warned myself not to be affected... continue to be ABC. but the reasoning from her.. just stab right thru my heart again.

coz of tired.. to give up her love?
coz of her.. worked hard for the future?

am i an idiot? maybe i really am.

stop fcuking my mind. i dun wish to think that way.
*slap awake!

if money gonna be the issue... am i retard to only find out 5 yrs lateR? - haha -

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:28 AM

I watched the walls

around me crumble

But its not like

I won't build them up again

So here's your last

chance for redemption

So take it while it lasts

because it will end

And my tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find

a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you

Can't breathe without you

I dream about you honestly

Tell me that its over

Because the world is spinning and

I'm still living

It wont be right if were not in it together

Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you

But at the same time you're the heart that

I call home

I'm always stuck with these emotions

And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Tell me that it's over

Over

Honestly tell me

Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that its over

Don't tell me that its over..

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:08 AM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

tired. v. tired!

i slp and slp and slp alot sia... and also eat and eat and eat! know why? it's all that bloodly idiot chimps' fault. make me eat and make me too slack and fell aslp! argh!! SLAP HARD!

went over to visit baby's mum. brought her fav. sweet that was purchased since.. last yr and her bro's chocolate. (did i mention the chocolate is v. expensive? i only get to know it when im paying for it. diaoz) im treated like a pig with so much food. baby cooked my fav. vege and auntie cut duck meat for me. (knowing that i duno how to eat bone, all the meat are boneless! haha.) saw a lot of her relatives and they asked me to play MJ but im meetin gal and exam constraint so - NO MJ.

meet gal for shopping. our main objective to shop is wallet but after shopping and walking around, the objective to shop become more. gal bought the wallet for her kor and slippers for herself. ME? empty handed! im leaving all my shopping list for HK!! whahaha.. GSS sux. the 70% = nth. the price in polo is $477 less 70%, which is almost $200+ still. wtf. not even a.. 'proper' sales! argh!!

grandma place for dinner. everyone there waiting for me to eat. im so late sia. grandma's cooking is superb!!! im so full.

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:50 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

that piggy jasper is driving everyone crazy!! wher the hell she is sia?? argh!! stupid jasper... everyone is worried abt you. PLEASE APPEAR!! currently waiting downstairs, waiting like some idiot lor. diaoz!

done with my finance, marketing and quantative method. finally... last paper to go for my freedom!! phew...... im tired. really tired. sick thou. feeling super sick!! argh!!

baobei just generated some random thoughts. i was thinking about it too den to realise.. it's normal and common.. so, not reading too much into it. was it me that's very wrong or just... im different from other girls? things that girls normally will mind... i seldom mind. i believe in the trust that i gave... and if any to betray the trust.. i shall only fault on myself for trusting them.

the end. - i'll be back!

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:29 PM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

fever fever!
sux to have fever!

- isolation with my books now. it's driving me crazy! especially when you are sick, it make it worse. =(

things not said.. not done.. just realise.. doesnt matter anymore. things not said.. coz I thought you will know and understand. things not done.. what else can be not done? just realise.. maybe you might think it's crap but if you understand me well.. that's the thing i will do and i did.

you once told me... not to assume that I know you well.. maybe i really din know anything about you. the one I love yet the one I dun understand. the devil side of you are hide by maine for not showing out and be mean when you're with me. i allowed the devil to release and trust to let her has her freedom. not to realise too... the freedom is too much. when you wish to control back.. it's suffocating her. misery isnt it?

enlighten by Kellyn and SL. guess.. the hurt content supercede the love content. the scar(s) remain and time will never be able to cure it. whenever I thought of it, it's a pain that will triggle my heart. painful. - and yes, it really hurts.

Alright. back to my studies ba. exam later. seems scary yet a little too sick to get bothered. Im tired thou. tml still got marketing and i have touch on revision a single bit. haha. BEST~

darling.. sorry.. im sick so had a hard time waking me up just now. =( im studying now le.. though not much time left. *yawnz. thanks for your sleepless night accompanying with my revision on tue. *heart. I know you are very tired already and that's why I make you go home and slp. muackz. slp tight till I wake you up later. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:18 AM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

thanks SL for everything.

i know you're trying to cheer me up by making a fun out of it.. but than.. i wasn't affected though. So sorry for letting your effort down to the drain. Never mind, rest assured, I would not wash it away. haha. Stop bring that evilness out from the libra. gosh.. i dun wana be evil evil evil. =x haha.

Scolded by Amy for something I forgot to change. Wasn't I silly enough to buy an insurance and place it under her name in the past? Shall i change it to 'gaigais' name instead? and yes.. i just realised.. i haven change. haha. If I die now.. baby gonna be damn rich la. so... curse me to die before i change la. haha. joking la.

Had a long long chat with Amy kor on sunday. I declare myself having PMS and AP, therefore before i flare up, I left JC and be alone. Dun wish to throw tantrum on my precious tubby. =x Kor was saying me, scolding me bla bla.. alright. knowing your mei so 'ben', you better protect her from harm and pamper her with all your love ya!

Talking about the past without crying, first time sia. Jul gonna be an interesting month?

6 - ying jie's bday
my beloved cousin. well.. i duno will she be back in spore to celebrate!!

12 - laogong's bday
silly laogong in ns. duno can come out anot? sob sob.

12 - baby's bday
hmm.. her gf will celebrate for her. dun need me to celebrate. haha.

19 - kor's bday
dinner with the close ones and loves one. followed by club or pub. sound interesting too.

base on SL's word, CL gonna be aloud. Why shld I hide things that I know? Why shld I act as if I duno? Why shld I do things without letting the other party awareness? And why shld I keep everything to myself?

things that you duno... for you to find out if you wan.
things that you shld know.. time to let you know.
coz be it... you know it now, before or after...
it's the past that you dun cherish the girl who loves you so much.

im giving up for the love I uphold.
giving up the promise I wish to make it true.
giving up in the one I used to love.
and
giving up in the belief that you created - even when you love each other, you dun have to be together.

if really it's meant to be... fate will decide. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:30 PM

for the following. no pin-pointing on anyone. just random thoughts kapo from SL's blog. haha.

SL's lesson learnt.
lesson learnt - find a rich another half
know y? coz dunch need to bother about money. dunch need to worry about bills. dunch need to worry this and that.

lesson learnt - dunch tell ur another half that ure rich
know y? he/she will take advantage of ur weath. Irregardless, intentionally or unintentionally.

lesson learnt - dunch carry other's bill under ur name
know y? the responsibility is on ur shoulder instead of the one using.

lesson learnt - never sacrifice so much for someone
know y? the more u give in and bear with all the down point, the harder for u to forget and move on.

lesson learnt - never act as if u duno
know y? sometimes, when u tried to act stupid for things that u saw and heard, it makes ur heart suffocate and hurt.

lesson learnt - dunch ever pick up watever ppl dunch wan
know y? u would not know what he/she did before with the other one. u will feel dirty and u will have phorbia to be with that person again.

maine's lesson learnt.
yes. agree with finding a rich partner. haha. SL wana be my partner ma? =x let's be PL la. for the others... agree agree agree la... haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:23 PM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

im pissed by JC!

- stupid idiot! pull your ear!! arGH!!!

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:03 PM

i cooked again. for baobei - jc, for dear kor - amy, for kor's family and for beloved gal - xx.

opps. not very nice. but hope you all like it. =D

it's been quite some time ever since i last cooked for my loves one. last one.. most prob.. for meiyun gal. haha. need to brush up my cooking a bit sia.. hmMmmm... after dinner i fell aslp while watching horror movie. haha. so.. amy and xx watched me and jc slp la. diaoz. until 1am ++, jasper and kat join us and we went downstairs and chat till morning. a simple gathering but it's so fun. love the bonding. love the group.

JASPER! you better remember my bday else.. watch out for my flying slipper!

JC! AMY! XX! KAT! JASPER! you all better remember our party wor! must organise and make it come true k? hUgz.

LOVE ALL!!

15 May 08

Im home early wor coz it's sis bday. had dinner at jack's place and baby came along too. but SHE IS LATE! food not very nice and i dun like it. so walked ard after dinner and sent baby home. simple dinner but enjoyed. brought small gaigai out to meet his daddy. but it seems like.. she also got new gaigai le.. so.. i think our gaigais dun mean anything to her anymore ya. =)

anyway.. if things remain like that.. den be like tat ba. dun wish to talk abt the past anymore. explain also explain enough le.. so.. be it ba.

=)

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:17 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008

So Cruel
by U2

We crossed the line
Who pushed who over?
It doesn’t matter to you, it matters to me

We’re cut adrift
We’re still floating
I’m only hanging on to watch you go down,
My love

I disappeared in you
You disappeared from me
I gave you everything you ever wanted
It wasn’t what you wanted

The men who love you, you hate the most
They pass right through you like a ghost
They look for you, but your spirit is in the air
Baby, you’re nowhere

Oh… love…
You say in love there are no rules
Oh… love…
Sweetheart,
You’re so cruel

Desparation is a tender trap
It gets you every time
You put your lips to her lips
To stop the lie

Her skin is pale like God’s only dove
Screams like an angel for your love
Then she makes you watch her from above
And you need her like a drug

Oh… love…
You say in love there are no rules
Oh… love…
Sweetheart,
You’re so cruel

She wears my love like a see-through dress
Her lips say one thing
Her movements something else
Oh love, like a screaming flower
Love…dying every hour…love

You don’t know if it’s fear or desire
Danger the drug that takes you higher
Head in heaven, fingers in the mire

Her heart is racing, you can’t keep up
The night is bleeding like a cut
Between the horses of love and lust
We are trampled underfoot

Oh… love…
To stay with you I’d be a fool
Sweetheart,
You’re so cruel.

the rediscovery of old song. the loving of their nuances, their lilts, their lyrical lyrics, the emotions evoked. perhaps it is a bit like making love for the first time, perhaps, for it is amazing how natural making love seems the first time round; the actions, the movements, the caresses, the touches. and how everyone always inevitably feels like they are the first ones to have discovered something so beautiful, so poetic; poetry in motion.

but truth be told, there were others who made love way before we ever did; others who carried out the same actions, made the same movements, hazarded the same caresses and tingled with the same touches. so this musical rediscovery, is perhaps, not so different after all, for there were definitely fans who lingered on the same lyric, for the same length of time, and had the song on repeat ad infinitum, ad nauseaum.

so like making love and rediscovering old songs, discovering how cruel love can be is an experience in itself, and that must be experienced for itself. everyone goes through it throughout history, so you are not the only one; there is no proxy for it, and neither are there substitutes - you have to go through the motions of love and loving to know the biting mercilessness that love sometimes accords to the lover.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:05 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Not knowing too much might be a blessing also? At least Im still under the impression that I am once deeply loved? But after knowing the truth... to trust or believe... does it matter anymore? To think that I am a uni grad? But i stupidly believe the one that I love deeply, giving all the trust but in the end.... hurt and disappointment is what I got?

enough enough enough. my mind wana know so much but i heart dun wish to know. It contradict the point. okie.. i guess, im dishearten enough and yes... it's enough for me not to hold on.. not to love.. and move on.

i thought everything can be fine.. will be fine and shld be fine... but you will never ever gonna imagine.. how how how hurtful it is.. I am transparent to you. at least.. i didnt lie about how my heart feel. Be it there's a lot of passer-by in my life, my only choice is still you in the end. Thou I know we would be together forever, I would still wana be with you as long as I can. Never to think, that's only my own thinking... So define.. who is the playful one den? Me or you?

I always blame myself for being playful, being stubborn, being unreasonable bla bla bla.. but.. now... I understand.. actually the problem dun lie on me.. I always wana be your perfect one. doing the best of the best for you. giving you every single thing you wan and hope to have. the problem is the one.. might not be loving enough. im not a perfect girl all along.. neither am I the perfect one for you.

I wasnt pleased with what you had blog but I kept quiet again. I know I can say back, but I hold back. Now... I think I shld SHOUT OUT LOUD.

Recall whatever you said and told me. don't give up on you and wait for the day i forgo everything and be together again. so i forgo and rejected everyone in line, waiting for the day you dun feel useless anymore. waiting for the day to take my hand again and walk it thru.

Why would all sweetness remain when you said you're pushing yourself to let go? why would all the kisses exchange when you said you are giving up on the relationship? and why would all the promises still committing when you are determine to go your own way without me?

YOU ASKED ME TO STAY ON. YOU ASKED ME NOT TO LET GO OF YOU. and now.. you simply tell me.. you pushed yourself to let go and move on? dun contridict yourself anymore. base on your "so called" determination... you selfishly move on yourself yet asking the girl you still love to hold on. Till you found someone else that can replace her... you tell her.. that's it.. you go your way.. she go her way...

enough said. i also dun wish to explain.

LOVE DEEPLY YET HURT DEEPLY.

thanks for everything too.

MY EVERYTHING not worth for you to accept. MY GOOD not worth for you to love. MY BAD not worth for you to take it. For am I a girl worth loving and giving in so much it doesnt matter anymore. For you go ahead and be with the "so called" worthwhile person now. I wouldn't fault and will never blame the one I love and once claimed loving me deeply for hurting me deeply!

im losing myself. the past me. the AP me. Where's my attitude and where's my temper? find it back.. maybe it wun hurt that much..

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:55 PM

blessed with love

I thanks ALL for loving me.

be it im not a perfect gal, but i blessed with love, highly maintained and protected well.

I am my dad's expensive little gal. HAHA.

studied at AMK on monday with JC companion all the way. my beloved gal, xx "so called" surprise me by popping up to accomapny me too. slack and slack and I din realise it's 4am. none of them complained for being tired and yet continue to accompany me when im studying. Felt bad for causing them to be so tired and do not have much rest when they have work the next day. appreciated. LOVES.

every single act touches my heart. it warm my "numb" heart, telling me im deeply loved still. the list of ppl loving and caring for me is so MANY and yet im crying for the ONE that dun appreciate and love me? sound retarded. Set myself free and also set the one in my heart free. I continue to uphold my promise even though you told me promises are meant to be broken. I remain the status unchange, and you will be my baby and forever devil. I remain silent again and be the friend you wana be. To me, for you, my last effort to make - not to piss you off.

My love ones, I dun wish anyone to be trapped in between. So, for the sake of me, dun hold grudges on anyone. dun blame anyone for hurting me or made me cry.

Hence, for the sake of myself and those who love me. i remain my smile.
For the sake of JC, I unlock my heart. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:20 AM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

in pain.
be in mentally or physically.

sux to my gastric. remove it and throw it away.
stop that medication. hate it hate it hate it.

sux to finance management.
it's always this paper you caused me to fail!

Trust? Am i still expected to trust you when you told me.. promises are meant to be broken? I trusted you so much in everything you said and done. Even when things are pretty obvious that you lied, I still trust you. Maybe a way, im lying to myself.

you hate it the way I dun trust you. When i gave you all the trust, what happened? you left me. Look here! you wanted me to trust you for everything you said. you wanted me to trust you this love you're talking about will last. you wanted me to trust you im your only love. you wanted me to trust you im the only angel baby of yours'. For all the trusting you wanted me to believe, you return me a sentense, promises are meant to be broken.

I wouldnt complain like a small kid. I had been keeping silent all the while. I never meant to piss you off neither do I want to make you difficult. You felt pissed is coz im not the one you love anymore? whatever i said to you, is just being unreasonable and having serious attitude problem. im no longer the one you know in the past. Don't relate me to that anymore.

yeapz. it's the past you don't wish to remember and I didn't even realised till now.. it's the past of us, you don't wish to recall.

i wouldnt fault on you if you told me you aint coming in the first place. i din suspect that intention of coming or not. But i just felt that if you have the intention to come, you will make your effort down. be it how late it can be. you know we wun end early and it's not the first time we waited for you.

im pissed for my parents' effort going to drain. Instead of feeling angry, attituding, reprimanding... i felt extremely sad. For dad and mum making hot the food expecting you to come. For dad and mum allowing you to stay with me when you're at your down point. For dad and mum bringing you to their workplace to work knowing you have no job. For dad and mum letting you be one part of the family. it's the thoughts that count but you insisted you aint at fault. Alright. enough said. you aint at fault den. Please don't ever recall the days you stayed here. For all the hard time we went thru, please don't ever recall. For every single things we did for each other, pleae don't ever recall. For the 5 YEARS, don't recall a single bit.

Start what you wana start, afresh.
Charmaine Lim Shi Wei, disappear from your heart and mind.
don't ever look back.
you wun feel a single bit for hurting the one who suffered so much coz of you.
and you wun feel anything at all for her tears and broken heart.
Your angel, your baby.. she's officially dead in your heart.

Once again, dishearted.

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:42 AM

Monday, May 12, 2008

Love sets me free.

The most spectacular,indescribable , deep euphoric feeling for someone.

Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.

This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa.

It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them.

Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:

That word is love.

Could you make this pain go away?
Could you fill my empty heart?
Could you heal all my wounds,
and promise you will never hurt me?
Promise me you'll never leave,
and make everything all right.
Promise me when I start to fall,
you'll hold on to me tight.
Promise me you'll protect me and help to wipe my tears away.
Promise me you'll love me no matter what I do,
and I will promise to make wish come true.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:36 AM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

From SL to CL with love =)

一张张我和你泛黄的照片被遗忘在角落.
是你说要我和你天长地久.
在你身旁守护着你的女人却已经不是我.

我愿意让你的回忆折磨我一辈子。

我不想解脱,我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
---
这感觉已经不对,我努力在挽回.
一些些应该体贴的感觉,你没给.
我嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微,在妥协.
是你忽略,我不过要人陪.

这感觉已经不对,你最后才了解.
一页页不忍翻阅的情节,我好累.
我默背为你掉过几次泪,多憔悴.
而我心碎,我受罪,
我的美,你不配.

[你知道我会爱你爱很久]

盼你更坏，赐给我决心忘记你.
会忘记的!

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:41 PM

Friday, May 09, 2008

From JC to CL with love.

For The Eyes Of My JC - CL Baobei

You know I won't forget the times we shared together holding hands
and walking in the park
Sometimes we'll have to do it all again
We were so happy then
I've no regrets
Can't you tell from the look on my face that I love you more today

The first time I looked into your eyes I cried
Do you remember the first time we fell in love
You looked into my eyes
Wiped the tears away
The first time when we fell in love

Although some time has passed
I still remember just like it was yesterday
The time is moving fast
The love I have for you
Time won't ever change
I always feel the same
Now until the end
Memories we share will live forever
Deep inside my heart I know I'll never forget.

The first time I looked into your eyes I cried
Do you remember the first time we fell in love
You looked into my eyes
Wiped the tears away
The first time when we fell in love

Music Bridge

The first time I looked into your eyes I cried
Do you remember the first time we fell in love
You looked into my eyes
Wiped the tears away
The first time when we fell in love
Oh when we fell in love

thanks for loving me. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:22 PM

People need their reasons, reasons to live and reasons to die
Just something to believe in, whatever it takes to get through the night
When the road just leads to nowhere, and your faith can't follow through
I'll be there for you

Black is black and white is white, and the blues are sometimes gray
When you hurt and you don't know why, and your tears won't go away
There's a rainbow out there somewhere, and one thing is always true
I'll be there for you

when hope seems thin and your chances are few
I'll share the pain and be someone to hold
And there's so much more I can do
I'll be there for you

We could talk forever, there's reasons to stay and reasons to go
But while we're here together, I might as well make my intentions known
There's a light that shines in my window, it's a place you can run back to
And I'll be there for you

when hope seems thin and your chances are few
when the outside world turns your inside cold
And no one will tell you the truth
I'll be there for you

And if the day should come in this lifetime
I hope one morning you'll wake up to find
Anyone with half a heart could see, we might cross this great divide

When the road just leads to nowhere, and faith can't follow through
I'll be there for you
And baby I'll be there for you, yes I will,
you know that I will be there for you.

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:41 AM

brighten up my lives
i longed for the promises to hold.
hold my hand and never let go.
the empty shell requires the sun to warm the inner heart.

for the one who once promised,
taking promises for granted.
for the one who promising,
taking courage to live up the words.

i prayed hard for my love to stay happy.
i prayed hard for my smile to remain.
indeed, happiness stay, smile remain.

ANGEL_scribbled * -2:55 AM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

home early. exam month. unwell. =(
tired. body aching and it hurts.

totally wear out.

i wana have fun.
endure. 3 more weeks to go!

HK, here i come! =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:41 PM

Monday, May 05, 2008

Memorable birthday surprise for Maryl. firstly, shall wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY first. thou i know she wouldn't get to see my post la. haha. this gal is in her big 3 already. gosh. *evil* i cant imagine myself in that '3' ya. haha. =x

the presents presented to her... WAH. im amazed!
1st: belt from G2000
2nd: SK Diamond Earring
3rd: Agnes B bag
4th: LV handbag
5th: 1 night at Novotel
6th: 1 night at Pan Pac.

I can totally imagine how dry Shikin can be. duh~ of coz..
- I also wan I also wan. * HINT! *

normally i dun really bother a lot with money issue but seems like I had been taken granted. Well, it's always the case. So pathetic!

Typical ladies we become. From kids to girls to teenagers to ladies to women. It seems like every year, there ought to be changes everywhere. It also depends on the people beside willingly to take the changes and understand each individual or not. Remaining the same is because fear of changes. Overcoming the fear is because facing the changes.

We all change and we'd live our lives together and not estranged. I didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away. Couldn't stay to watch me cry because you simply didn't have the time, so I softly slip away. No regrets, they don't work and they only hurt. Suppose it's just a point of view, but they tell me I'm doing fine. I know from the outside, we looked good for each other.

Everything I wanted to be, I'll choose to walked away. Every time you told me to leave, I just wanted to stay. Every time you looked at me and every time you smiled, I felt so vacant you treat me like a baby. I loved the way we used to laugh. I loved the way we used to smile. Often I sit down and think of you, for a while, then it passes by me and I think of someone else you're holding now instead. I guess the love we once had is officially dead. Proven by you. You had let it die. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:50 AM