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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

everything resolved. good! =)

i would say... gals.. be strong.

not the end of the world.

when you cry, the world wun cry for you.
when you die, the world wun stop for you.

life is just so so so short. im only twenty and im so tired so carry on?

NO.

i have to... be strong.

gambatte.

ANGEL_scribbled * -10:49 PM

Monday, June 25, 2007

alright. i "happened" to come across this blog..

to clarify on the "fcuk up" incident. Maybe im blind but I really din see that tiles was being changed. So, I voice out and well, other party proved that tiles had been change den fine~ i'll pay. In regards to attitude problem, I raised my hand admit that im a spoilt brat. I throw temper yes, but not to anyone but only to my gf. AND your gf, throw temper to everyone by throwing the tiles all around. If I have attitude problem, your gf dun have? I admit that im spoilt. I admit for having attitude problem. This is my behaviour, a bad habit. I, admit. But do someone even admit for being throwing her temper bla bla bla. Not to say anymore, it's over anyway. For me being unreasonable and thow temper on you, I can apologise. reason being, my family gave in to me and that result me for having such a temper. If i am wrong, I will admit. Same as it goes. Do Reflect Any Wrong In You than.

1. temper in mahjong. everyone has their temper. some good, some bad. I know mine is bad and i do admit it. If i clearly recall, through out all mahjong games, I dun think im the only one throwing temper.

2. even though than, if i lose, i will pay on the spot and not delaying in payment unless i dun have cash, i trf the next day. if you lose and say you can only pay me back on pay day, im okie with it, did i ever press you for any payment. why my goodwill, you dun appreciate. in such a case, why must i pay you upfront and you delay me in payment? that don't sound logical isnt it?

3. problem rely on ppl who dun admit their fault. basically, it's okie for me if you talk bad about me behind. I understand it's due to my gf and you all give me "face" for not saying in front of me. doesn't matter. cannot take it than be it. you aint my true frenz. you are just playing mahjong with me bcoz ther's no kaki. the bond that we used to have, no longer exist ever since crystal mummy left.

the above is about mahjong game. now im clarifying on the part of "BROTHER".

you said what kind of bro is she. than now, my turn to ask, what kind of bro are you? YES. you sad, you quarrel, you brk with gf, when you asked her to accompany you, did she ever reject yr request? you need money, borrow frm her, if she got cash, will she lend you? joining of parties, events, she will asked you along. but when you're out ther enjoying, ever thought of your BRO? - NO, you din.

the most recent example. her case that closed recently. She need cash. ever tried asking around to help her? ever call to update wat happened? ever asked what else you can help? even you dont have the cash, at least you may concern by asking if there's anything you may do for her. but again, - NO, you din.

im not picking on a quarrel. not "fcuking up" here to scold ppl or whatever. Im reasoning out. Be it, you may say im being sarcastic, unreasonable again and cannot take my temper. Whatever it is, Im just here to clarify and HOPE YOU DO REFLECT on everything.

think about it, why she bcoz of this gal, gave up the bro r/s? was it really bcoz of this gal or was it bcoz of you?

moreover, they aint together anymore. and she gave her up. so is the reason being still bcoz of this gal?

pls kindly reflect and think over than. I had finished with whatever I would wish to clarify.

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:10 AM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

wo ke yi

without you to rely on.. a little not used to it?

i was being given up in the end.

4 years just gone pass. i dun need big big celebration on anniversary. i dun need expensive stuff. i dun need you to provide me with allowance to survive. i might be a little selfish. demanding. stubborn. unreasonable.

well.. nevertheless, you gave me up still. abandon me. leaving me alone now.

time prove? but before the time came thru, it's too late on anything.

the love, don't allow any 3rd party. don't allow taking for granted. don't allow disappointment.

i'll keep this love in my heart as this love is not being appreciated.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:57 AM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

unpredictable

i wish i can forsee the future? so i know when will i be gone. life that unpredictable. the next moment, you will not know what will happened.

sick. fever till high degree! and totally could not think anymore. head spinning and spinning. vision is so blur. What flash by is.. if i sleep now.. will i still wake up?

so that's why, ppl always say, Cherish and Treasure the one beside you. Be it, family, sisters, best frenz, classmates, colleagues or normal frenz. Everyone has their value to be cherish by others.

i miss this darling little gal. though she left me, left her family and her close one already, still.. she stands such position in my heart. i miss her complaining abt her boyfriend. i miss her polishing her nails in office. miss her praising herself for being able to wear high heels for the whole day without complaining. miss her silly innocent face. miss every single thing about her.

i know.. if one day, im gone. my parent will be very depress. my sister will be very sad that no one will be there to quarrel with her. my brother will be very sad that no one will be there to make fun of him. guess.. they will also miss every single thing about me.

so.. if one day, im gone. will some one actually regret for not cherishing me? for not explaining? for keeping everything to himself? for avoiding?

that will only provide.. if that one day im gone. so you shall wait till that day to regret and depress than.

ANGEL_scribbled * -10:05 PM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

finally.. got my irritating hair done! alright. spent a bit more than usual but guess.. it's worth it. I like the end result though. =)

my days are spent.. work. home. exercise. family day. ladies night. fruitful isnt it?

guess.. it's time to grow up. not to stuck at the same point. not to be depress anymore. I still have alot of things to be completed. Successful Career. Good Results in Uni.

school starting in july. looking forward though but im still not done with selecting my modules. no credit exemption. gotta appeal den.. haiz..

alot to say. alot to blog actually.. but out of the sudden... i run out of words. shall study together with my sister den. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:31 AM

1. dun leave tag without indicating name. -_- i wun know who's out there caring. DUH~ pls.. i thought you were someone.. but he will nv ask me "what happened? and what im sad abt?" coz he know the reason.

2. im losing the reason to love. losing the faith. losing the confidence. finally.. i lose myself.

3. im glad for my ladies to pick me up. regardless how badly i fall, thanks for being there to pick me up! though not complete yet, im learning to let go bit by bit.

4. if you love me, let me know it. avoiding aint the way to solve everything. if you still care, let me know it. it's doesn't make you very noble for not saying.

5. i asked myself.. am i still the gal you know? are you still the one i know? i still could not find the answer.. guess.. i just refuse to admit that we changed?

6. im learning to accept. but i still hope, we are friends. =)

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:17 AM