+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Friday, June 30, 2006

the life..

the world, so unfair.
no one deserve to leave.

but why did my dear little gal left?

i miss you badly.

it's just so sudden. how much i wish to tell her all the best in sim. how much i wish to tell her we love her lots. how much i missed her smilez. how much i miss her asking me what to do. how much i missed her sms. how much i missed her call. how much i missed her voice.

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that's how she feels. that's what she suffered.

i mentioned before, i see the past me in her. that was why i felt so closed to her. we always wanted to help her, advice her as much as we could.. but.. we will never be able to advice her anymore.

thinking of myself.. what am i? who am i? as compared to the death of her.. what's so sad over a guy? he's aint that great. and he's just someone that hurt me. and at least i can feel.. and her... did not hurt me before and i never once shed a tear for her before until now.. she's gone. she cant feel anymore. we just cried like no one business.

im being restrain to look at her remains. they are worried that i will break down. meanwhile.. i am breaking down already.

she used to tell me.. go for what i wan. go for who i wan. go with how i feel. we are just so simple yet we are so meant to be hurt by others.

for now, i rather her ex or bf continue to hurt her. even if so, at least she's still around. at least, we can nag her. at least we can scold her. at least she can feel. at least she can smile when her boy did sweet thing to her. how i wish she's still alive.. jumping.. nagging us to pei her go buy drinks. making fun of her doing her nails. showing off my manicure to her. gossip about how cheap bugis clothes are.

how i wish.. she is still around!! i could not believe she left us to another world. it's just so sudden.

why the one that wish to die did not die? why the one who wish to stay alive have to die?

consider myself lucky ma?

though he's not there for me anymore.. i still got my family. i got my ladies. i got my exs. i got my frenz. i got my sister. i got my brother. at least.. when im tired, there's shoulder around for me to lie on. i shld not let them worry abt me. and.... i really love them lots.

junie.. i love you too.. but you will never hear from me anymore...

our forever xiao mei.

- cries.

it's too hard to bear... too hard to take.. too hard to carry on.. too hard...

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:20 AM

Thursday, June 29, 2006

cherish what you have before it's too late.

i told her, i'll be seeing her on thur. i told her, we need to go shop together next time. i told her, about my relationship problem. i told her, about her bf. it's just sat.. i told her..

she left me le.
she left us forever.

~~i also wana leave with her.~~

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:17 AM

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

i realised.. i love my ladies to the extreme...

i love gal.

i love vAnz.

i LOVE my lao da and lao san~~!!

i love my darling mei too.

thanks for being there for me.

watching me cry. watching me smile. watching me laugh. watching me sad. watching me happy. watching me. watching me~~

simple is nothing wrong. complicated is nothing wrong too. as long as i am myself.

my dear~ (whoever it will be) love me for who i am.

i wished so much that it will be you. i said i wun hate you as long as i dun cry. but i cried le. still i dun hate you. den why? you mean something to me. but i mean nothing to you. if i mean nothing to you, why even step into my life? why even make me fall? enough. i shall not day dream any longer. the one you want, is not me. no matter how 'nice' am i, it's not me still. i can wake up early just to cook breakfast for my dear even if im working night shift the previous night. i can give him a kiss to inform him that im still beside him when the whole world go against him. i can massage for him when he's tired. i can just go all the way down to see him bcoz i missed him. i can take mc just to accompany him for some party. i can dun plan for anything on my off day just to wait for him to wake up and bring me out. i can do anything he wanted me to do. as long as it's within my limit. but.. i realised.. how stupid i am. even if i can do everything.. im still not the one he wanted.

why do i longed to be with someone that still wana play? why do i longed to be with him when im just like a toy to him? why din i accept the others that will treat me nicely? why din i even consider them except him? and.. what so great about him?

it's my patient to wait. it's foolish. just let time prove everything. just let time heal.

i still have my ladies and darling.. im still consider a princess being protected by them. and lastly, seriously.. i really love them lots lots lots.. muAckz!!

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:17 AM

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

~~expecting a perfect day tml.. but... guess.. no more le. =(~~

~~i shall rot all the way till night den meet him at night bah.. *yawnz.~~

shall do some shopping tml? no no.. must save up sia..

2nd attempt super ex. spent another 400 without nothing. all coz of that idiotic tester! arGh~ dun talk about it sia!!

acc left with nth. mum scolded for spending too much. ya.. i agree sia.. shall leave all my cards at home den~ -_-

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:08 AM

Monday, June 26, 2006

failed. how pathetic. -_-

so sad lor.

i failed tp~ no bday present for myself.

the tester keep scolding and scolding me just because i argue with him over a small matter. what the fuck sia.

no wonder gal and lao da dun encourage bbdc. bloodly idiot.

my warming up, my instructor was telling me.. wah.. you very good ar.. the next moment, the tester scold and scold.. damn it.. really damn IDIOT TESTER!

if i passed at the 2nd attempt, dun let me see him on road. i will go bang~ his car sia!! ARGH!

roars....

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:15 PM

awaiting for tp~

scary!!!

scared!!

tp.. in about 4 hours time...

i just came back from work.. i understand that i need some rest before tp~ but just CANNOT SLP!!!

ahhhhhhh.... gan jiong spider...

how!!!!

need someone to comfort me down sia.. ah...

ANGEL_scribbled * -9:51 AM

Sunday, June 25, 2006

the mrs.

ANGEL_scribbled * -8:52 AM

i just wana be as simple as i can

Finally get my wireless done. The reason to be? I never on the main switch. Bloody hell idiot. That's stupid sia.. -_- and thank so much for my beloved boy who 'enlighten' me. haha.

ns man sia!! super man worz.. haha.. and for this post.. i shall actually declare that.. he's going to get me zen vision m... im awaiting for it.. ahem.. dreams do come true when you wish hard for it sia.. especially when he doesnt has the obligation to get it for me.. but yet... getting it for me.. SO SWEET!!

so looking forward for him to come fetch me off work but that poor boy was sick. so.. let him rest at home den. even though he actually suggested eating panadol and come meet me, i also dun allow.. hmpf.

alright. enough of boy ya.. if not.. the more im blogging about him.. im afraid he might fly up the sky as his gal keep talking about him. haha.

well... saw "hao yong" online today and had a little chat with him. and duh~ blur me all along thought his name is "han yong" instead of hao yong. and yeapx.. he corrected me. ahem.

ns life to them is... drink, eat, exercise, lesson and sleep.. chey. so not interesting sia.. i thought it will be like sec sch camp where there's ghost story and gossip.. maybe.. that only applies for gals? haha. i duno.

something to bring up. actually.. who's not afraid of stepping into a relationship especially when they were once deeply hurt beforE?

to him, he's afraid.
to me, im afraid too.

lifestyle is something that a person can change. if you truly love that person, his/her lifestyle can be changed for you. i once thought we were so different.. but never to realise, i had already blend into your lifestyle long before we were about to be together. but none of us realised until you left me and i left you.

his logic was, too different. but now, i would say, there's not much differences. we came from perfect family. with the same education. same up-bringing. same kind of family background. same kind of school. same kind of frenz that mixed with. same kind of hobbies. same kind of thinking. we are too similar instead of too different. though i enjoy clubbing but you don't, that's the only different i guess?

my logic was, too afraid. afraid of being too similar that lead to boredness. afraid of being hurt. afraid of accepting the fact that we loved each other(either of, i love you.) afraid of you loving me is just a 'habit' not true love. afraid of not being ourselves. afraid of changes. afraid of everything. lastly, the confident.

i begin to think alot. alot alot. and what to say.. both of us.. wished to be as simple as we could be.

the 3rd time le.

the 3rd time that we missed each other.. will there be a 4th time? or sad to say.. it's the end that we will never ever have the chance again? it's a waste isnt it? 7 years.. coming to 8 years.. 9 years.. 10 years.. maybe the next time we met, 20 years later. with his wife and kid beside him bumping into me at taka or some shopping center? how pathetic...

alot to say to him. but i bet when i face him, i got nothing to say. haha. he's too shy. im too stubborn. that's why.. it doesnt work out? like what yongz told me, if he was to say it out, things will turn out differently.

anyway, yeapz. must be strong. everyone will find their happiness. unhappiness serve as a reminder that we must treasure happiness when it comes. haha. i even kapo sms now. ahem. dun understand? nvm.. yongz understand jiu hao le.. haha..

meanwhile, i shall take this chance to blog about my ex. ya. happily attached to his gal now. =)

he always mind so much that i din blogged about him. but den... i seldom do blog about him coz... i dun wish to be the source of his misery. i never insist in leaving you. but i noe i have to do so. in order not to make you fall too deep. in order to stop dragging. in order to let you adapt life without me.

prove me right that i leave you for good. you found someone who loves you. that's impt.

at least,
without me, she can make you smile.
without me, she can make you loved.
without me, life still goes on.

tears start rolling down again.
promised not to cry anymore, but still cannot control.
promised to be happy, but still hiding the smile away.

maybe i wished too much to be loved le.
maybe i wished too much for a true love.
maybe im too tired.
maybe maybe.
i just need a shoulder to rely on.
the arms to be hugged.
the lips to be kissed.
im just a very simple gal.
grant my wish pls.

but a gentle reminder, grant my wish only when you are being true to me. i dun wished to be hurt anymore.

it's too painful.
and it's really very painful.

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:43 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

fun with mrs lim.

i had alot alot alot of fun with mrs neo! and im really missing her lots now!!

looking thru her blog.. saw those combination of the funny and interesting pic we took.. i really lol.. haha..

i would have to say, mr tan really changed a lot as compare to the past. i think we really do prefer him this way. haha. it's fun ya. although im like going out with them.. but they dun make me felt extra! that's why i love my mrs lim lots..

suppose to be meeting someone but ahem.. he slept all the way till late evening den wake up.. HOW POWERFUL sia.. nevertheless, i still ENJOYED myself to the fullest!! seriously.. no point getting upset or anything just bcoz of a person. that will be so unfair to myself isnt it?

went to tpy to pick up some old memories.. actually suppose to be a day for the 2 mrs. but a mr tan pop out no where. haha. and he is so sweet to fetch me from my place and went to fetch my darling. it's been some times ever since i saw my darling's mummy ya.. so went up to visit her for awhile.. heex..

den went to tpy for lunch. walked around and gossip as usual. those sec school time.. hmmMm.. i missed my ex. haha.. coz tpy used to be our dating 'location'.. haha.. the old popular had became kbox.. there got pasta mania which is like not there when im in sec sch. so many changes sia.. shopping trip as well as talking about the past. the feeling is good! haha.. ate lunch at the bubble tea shop and made us recall those days at hougang green! argh~~!! haha.. maybe shld have some gathering with our ex-es at hougang green sia.. haha..

den after tpy, went to bugis street. passed that idiotic di of mine his hp and also shop ard there. i would have to say, there's really nth much to buy. and i felt myself getting so much "older" coz i dun seems to be interested in the things at bugis.. it's like.. too kiddy for me sia.. oh my.. anyway, i din went off empty handed, i bought my fav perfume! heex. =)

~~slack around at bugis, waiting for that boy to get himself ready. in the end, he sms me saying that he's not meeting us le. seriously, im piseed by him.~~ but anyway, i got over it when we went kbox and have fun. had alot alot of fun ya. until my mum pissed me off. arGh. im being pissed by 2 person in one row sia..! arGh!!

anyway.. pics will be uploaded. haha.. happy viewing when i post it up bah. i'll make sure, the discription will be super entertaining.. heex..

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:48 PM

photos on lao da's bday

lao da's sweet 21st birthday.

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:45 PM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

learning to be alone

learning to face everything alone. that's include work, relationship and any other problems.

i have to.. need to.. be independent.. for now.. there's no one else for me to turn to anymore.. the beloved is not there anymore. and i dun wish to say anything to him too.. coz i will only make him worry for me or make him even guilty.. i dun wan him to felt that way.. so i choose to.. keep quiet..

i dun like the feeling of being hold back. i dun like the feeling of waiting for calls or sms. i dun like the feeling of waiting to meet. i dun like the feeling of waiting for him to say miss me or love me.

i dun like to be treated nicely at times yet being ignored at times. i dun like. dun like. dun like.

i noe only myself can make myself better.. so.. i shall treat him the same way as he treated me.. in the first place, why must i be nice to him when he's not my anything? i noe im naive.. i noe im stupid.. let it be ya... im so meant to be cheated sia.. arGh...

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:05 AM

Monday, June 19, 2006

the first night as CPO.

cool. my first night delicated to citibank. haha.

interesting.. not much calls.. not much problem faced.. hai hao la.. =)

was MC for 2 days.. and there's so much to do.. sOb.. and to be true.. im super tired now.. yAwnz.. been out for these 2 days.. for lao da's bday.. and another day for.. eh.. fishing.. haha..

on lao da's bday.. we had so much fun drinking sia.. trying hard to make her drunk.. but duh~ we are not successful.. so in the end, we changed our plan.. we threw her into the sea!! YES!! whaha.. i will upload the pic asap ya.. meanwhile.. on this particular day.. ahem.. i won for soccer.. YEAH!! haha..

i "specially" din work just to go for lao da's bday celebration. she collected so many present sia.. how i wish my bday will be as happening as hers'.. hmmm.. well, still wondering how shld i celebrate it sia..

it's so nice to see my darling there.. miss her so so so so much sia.. gossip a bit here and there.. heex.. and i seriously miss my darling and our secondary school days..

was super tired after chalet.. and i went home and slp slp slp all the way... ~~woke up in the evening and went for fishing with him. suppose to go watch movie de.. but in the end, he said wana pei his boss go fishing.. den wana bring me along.. so.. i went lor..~~

went to his work place den bring that mr china to eat pasta mania.. he claims that he nv eat before sia.. haha.. of coz.. i recommand my fav to him.. marinara!! yUmmy.. i guess.. he delicate alot of "first time" to me sia.. haha.. =x well.. i will hv to say.. he really dun seems to be the kind of guy.. everyone thought of.. or is it.. im too nice to be cheated? ahem..

after that we went to esplanade for fishing.. i knew it.. we cant be possible to fish there lor.. got nth to fish lor.. so went walk around.. waited for his frenz and boss to join us.. den also find out wher will be the best place to fish.. after chit chatting with some uncles there, we went to sit at the riverside.. that boy saw crab in the river and he went to catch it sia.. haha.. so funny.. taken pictures of it.. will upload soon too. went to tanjong rhu for fishing.. and we caught nothing for the whole night lor.. yAwnz. tired!!

so.. my first night as a cpo.. happening sia.. but den.. im super tired.. and i wonder how am i going for my practical lesson later.. i will be super super tired lor.. yAwnz.. still hv to meet my frenz later.. wonder i can wake up anot sia.. haiz..

anyway anyway.. i decided to stay cheerful and happy. whatever route i choose, im the one deciding for myself.. and i wish that.. the one that love and care for me.. will stay happy too.. coz i dun wish to see baby to be sad... i hope he will find another true love.. and be happy again without me.. that's what we promised each other to be. must be happy. =)

cant deny.. 21st is approaching me.. oh my.. be happy or be sad sia.. the path of growing up and becoming an adult.. argh.. I DUN WANA GROW UP~~

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:20 PM

Monday, June 12, 2006

我要快乐

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的
全都是假的
我的决定是对的

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:12 AM

moral of story..

go with your feel den...

我的他，出现了吗？

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:57 AM

e: wat u mean wat should u do?
m: the road to go and wat shld i do
e: why leh? u got new target again ar?
m: no la... ppl target me lei.. haha =X
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e: if u really really love a guy..then be wif him.. if not stay single simple as tat.. doesnt mean ppl chase u means u need to accept..
m: i noe this logic ya.. haha.. im jut thinking wat i wan and wat i shld be doing..
e: u should be with me
m: how come? har? haha..
e: the qns should be..why not?
m: haha.. hmmm...
e: any super big reason why i would make a bad bf to u?
m: no la.. just.. haha.. duno..
e: so tat would mean i would be on par wif any other guy chasing u now rite?
m: yesh.. opps.. =x
e: which also means..if u can tink so much n consider them.. why cant u put in the same effort n consider me as well? esp someone who u can relate so well..noe my char more or less..feel comfortable wif me..n someone who u can be confident to be a gd bf? rather than on someone else who might still be a question mark?
m: hMmmm... good summary.. haha..
e: which brings me to my final n last point.. n if even someone u can be confident..n have always been in front of u all the time bt u juz choose to ignore cant be yr bf...do u really tink u should be in a relationship wif the other guys who r chasing u for money/sex/body or watever reason unless u start to really noe them inside out like u do of me? N since u cant be confident wif them..then why bother to even be bothered abt tis whole
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m: true..
e: and to summarise.. Its better to give a chance to something tried n tested and have confident of some success...rather than give in to complete trial and luck cases where u even up being the suffering one coz u r being the lab mouse..the test subject..the one kanna played on.. so to give u something to consider n really think abt ( instead of totally silly things like whether to accept guys chasing u juz coz of looks )... Consider me!! :P coz seriously...till now..i'm juz tinking... wat is it tat u hated abt me so much...coz seriously..i dun tink i treated u anything less than a princess.. i've been really nice to u...n i'm veri sure we connected on many different levels..n communicate pretty well we do enjoy each other's company..n we feel relaxed when we r wif each other.. if these r nt the key things a girl should look for in a guy..i seriously dun noe wat le.. if money...looks..status...is so important to u..then i guess i'm totally out, but if tat is yr criteria..then i can say..u r nt looking for bf le..u r juz looking for a suger daddy
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e: i like being able to point the right direction in yr life... coz i tink u r a really wonderful girl..bt u r easily lost...u need someone to guide u..to care for u...to take care of u..to love u.. so far..for the past 2-3 yrs of yr life..i've been consistantly doing it...i may not be there for u every single day...bt u hv juz to ask..n i'll be there.. i've been in yr background for years now...always assisting n caring for u behind u..n in the shadows.. but u nv noticed..or be bothered abt it.. sometimes..the good things in life is not about wat u can see...bt wat u can feel.. well..ponder over tat my darling maine :)
e: For something beautiful to happen...sometimes u need to give a ugly worm the chance to become a beautiful Butterfly... Give the worm a chance... nite

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:44 AM

i see my past.. in junie.. i felt like an idiot in the past..

and what.. and how does it last till 2 years?.. i wonder..

im silly or was it really just out of love?

being hit.. being an atm machine.. being a maid.. being everything.. the result was.. break up still~...

the past is horrible.. the past is scary.. i will never step into such life ANYMORE!

play boys.. stay away from me!! what i wan.. is someone who treated me as who i am whole heartly..

get lost.. i got attitude problem.. YOU CARE?

hmpf..

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:39 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

吴克群 - 我有罪

~~我知道~~
~~讲的罪~~
~~我太自以为~~
~~我知道我有错~~
~~讲的错~~
~~贪新又厌旧~~
~~说话大声是我就是我~~
~~错却不好说拈花惹草是我~~
~~又是我~~
~~罪让你承受~~
~~就罚我唱情歌说话别大声~~
~~我错我承认~~
~~就罚我唱情歌越唱越大声~~
~~我爱我承认~~
~~唱到我声嘶力竭~~
~~那又如何~~
~~你值得更好的男人~~

~~我知道我有罪~~
~~讲的罪~~
~~只出一张嘴~~
~~我知道我有错~~
~~讲的错~~
~~坏朋友太多让你伤心是我~~
~~就是我~~
~~错却不好说痞子无赖是我~~
~~又是我~~
~~罪让你承受~~
~~就罚我唱情歌说话别大声~~
~~我错我承认~~
~~就罚我唱情歌越唱越大声~~
~~我爱我承认~~
~~唱到我声嘶力竭~~
~~那又如何~~
~~你值得更好的男人~~

~~让我这罪人~~
~~嚷到心灰意冷~~
~~痛苦已喊不出声~~

~~你背已转身~~
~~看到你伤痕~~
~~才知道我错我有多么残忍~~

~~就罚我唱情歌说话别大声~~
~~我错我承认~~
~~就罚我唱情歌越唱越大声~~
~~我爱我承认~~
~~唱到我声嘶力竭~~
~~那又如何~~
~~你值得更好的男人~~

~~就罚我唱情歌再也别大声~~
~~我错我承认~~
~~就罚我唱情歌全世界施舍~~
~~我爱我承认~~
~~唱到你心灰意沉~~
~~听我的歌~~
~~这次我比谁都认真~~

~~就罚我唱情歌~~~
~~就罚我唱情歌~哦~~

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:00 AM

Saturday, June 10, 2006

hp declared DEAD.

my hp is dead. totally cannot on.. so sad.. so frenz who saw this.. kindly sms me your no. coz i think when i get it repair.. it will be.. reformated.. ahem..

i din drop it.. din throw it.. din do anything to it.. it just auto shut down and pronounced DEAD! sadded!! i love my hp so much.. dun even bear to trade in for new phone.. but.. why DEAD now?? sob sob sob..

trying to bring it to the nokia center to repair later.. hopefully.. it will be alive again.. haiz....

ANGEL_scribbled * -8:29 AM

photos for... the ladies.. =)

ladies night. weehee..~

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:25 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006

to the special *you..

yesh. it's you. stop guessing.

the most powerful one that make charmaine cry over and over... the most powerful one that make charmaine felt so miserable.. the most powerful one that make charmaine felt so helpless.. the most powerful one that make charmaine lost all her pride and confidence..

ppl who dun understand.. yes.. pls dun ask. thank you so much.

same thing over and over again.

yeapx.. must take good care.. must jia you.. must tolerate.. must ren.. must eat well.. must eat on time.. must cover hao blanket.. must train hard to spread away your "lian he guo".. must be careful.. must listen to the instructor.. must not fall sick.. must not skip meals.. must not miss me and i noe you wun.. hiakx..

you nv grant my wish to meet before you book in.. you nv grant my bday wish.. you nv did wat you said.. you nv give any explaintion.. i wish i found the old you back. but i didnt..

end it here. coz i really got nth else to say anymore.

要好好照顾自己....

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:02 PM

i miss my cousin

just came back from meeting my cousin at zouk. and she is bloody hell drunk.. need to take care of her sia..

ya. happening. i dun even wish to report to someone since im so not being bothered! ya.. wat for??!!

pissed.

drinking is not the way out.. to be drunk is the way out..

drunk myself from everything.. all troubles.. all problems.. all stress.. all saddness.. all unhappiness.. everything.. everything..

but unfortunately.. it's just so sad.. when you wana be drunk.. you just cant get drunk.. therefore.. im here blogging..

yeap. im no longer the little gal everyone knows.. neither am i the "old" charmaine..

changed is the word to describe.. that's wat you said. right?

feeling superly down today due to work. did a very big mistake.. arGh.. hopefully.. it can be solved.. sObz...

being left alone behind by my so called "dear".. apparently.. hmm.. im the extra there.. so yeap.. nvm.. anyway.. "dear".. have a good rest on your off day alright?

at that point of time.. i really felt so pathetic. really DAMN pathetic. alright.. nvm den. really nvm...

nevertheless.. i still enjoyed with my cousin.. and of coz.. super old frenz and new frenz that i saw and know. at least.. im still not as pathetic as.. im suppose to be.. grins..

single life to be.. alone to be.. waiting for a love that will never ever come back to me again.....

yesh. leave me alone. ALONE all the way.... learning to.. put down and carry on~~

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:03 AM

specially to hao yong..

okie. i said i will post and yes. i did.

yeapz.. gonna say a goodbye to a boy and welcome a MAN~

ns guys.. you are the most wei da de.. protect our country! yeah~ =)

sad for me.. nth more to kapo.. only wait till you book out den i will be able to see some post.. prob by that time.. it will be everything about camp.. tekong.. botak.. marching.. punishment.. hmmm.. wat else.. haha.. looking forward to see your post up on your blog ya...

precisly... a man to be... must be brave.. must be careful.. must endure.. must be able to take hard work.. and most importantly.. please take good care of yourself...

you noe.... a lot of ppl cared for you and love you lots.. so.. dont worry them.. so wan shi yao xiao xin worz.... =)

jiA you..... and 2 years - public holidays - leaves - book out for home.. it will pass very quickly de..

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:45 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

to elson and rave~

i dont know will you two have the chance to read my blog. if so.. must be that sister of mine tell de sia... ahem~

anyway.. enjoyed dbl O with you. and also.. had alot of fun together with my ladies. hopefully rave can make it on wed to join us with the fun.

stop sian-ing my ladies. they are both attached! haha.. =x

will miss the fun with the both of you. rave with all his crap and his forever i-gallop. elson aka ulcer who keep disturbing my ang mei mei. hmpf..

enjoy yourself in camp... OPPS! =x haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:18 AM

specially to nicholas chong - my small boy~

dearest small boy:

BE A MAN ya..

going ns soon le. im gonna miss you real lots. will miss you rubbish. will miss your barley water. will miss you calling me gal. will miss your everything... especially your bald head! wahaha..

nv used to say all these to you. but still, thanks for being there all along. thanks for being there to cheer me up when im sad. thanks for tolerating my rubbish, my temper, my behaviour and everything.

must take care of yourself when you are in camp alright? and date me out when you book out!! ahem.. we go club again but i promise.. i wun drink so much again.. haha.. =x

i wana trash you on pool again again. you owe me 500 words of post and also a present!! i wan a present from you!! dont care! pls take a look at my wish list. haha. thank you in advance. opps.. =x

dun cry anymore lor... crybaby...

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:43 AM

Sunday, June 04, 2006

ladies ladies ladies!

the ladies night out again again~~

m.o.s to dbl O. free entry. free drinks. free ride home~ haha.

my dear aint missing me. my dear aint msg-ing me. my dear aint meeting me. SO SAD~! promised to sing terribly horribly to me when im down, but... no where to be seen around. hmpf~ duh.. i noe my position! ahem. just nth at all. whahaha.

lucky to have my ladies around. play. chiong. flirt. have fun together. no time to think too much! have fun first.

shift work starting from today. and im really very tired now.

i wana slim down. so im not going to eat for any meals. plain water will do!! AH! dun care dun care!!

nic was drunk yest. kind of worried for him. duno how to drink still drink so much. silly boy. but i hope he drunk with happy mood instead of sad mood.

happy is the way to live on isnt it?

it's not the end of the world. and i shld cry no more.

i guess all my guys frenz going NS soon le. i believe *you too. since you actually refuse to talk to me, msg me, msn me and whateva. is there a need to make the situation become like this? what's wrong with the 2 of us? cannot be lover, friend also cannot? i just dun understand why~~! maybe till the day i understand... i will be a granny le.. hiakx!

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:37 AM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

ladies night out

it's fun to play around with my ladies.. weehee~~!!

will be going on shift soon.. i can only chiong during my off days.. how sad.. -_-

suppose to be meeting someone de.. but he just not free for me.. i need him to anyhow sing ya.. coz my mood is really not very the good.. i need him to sing horrible songs to me again again!

my darling ling is also not free for me.. she is busy working and working.. missing her so so so so much... and I LOVE HER so so so so much!!!

today... is my off day.. tml too.. but.. im now so bored! oh well~~

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:30 PM