+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Thursday, September 25, 2008

my desire~

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:12 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i am too. blessed with my JC tubby by my side.. not forgetting all my darlz.

loves dear to bits..
loves mrs lim to bits..
loves sunzi to bits..
loves lao da to bits..
loves lao san to bits..
loves aiai to bits..
loves xx gal to bits..
loves amy kor to bits..
loves jesse to bits..
loves naggy jasper to bits..
loves nu er to bits..
loves lao gong to bits..
loves jean gf to bits..
loves nikki to bits..
loves maryl to bits..
loves shikin to bits..
loves mich mummy to bits..
loves bfs to bits..
loves anna to bits..
loves my family to bits..

loves.. loves.. loves..

the list goes on. love all who loves me! muAckz.

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:34 AM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

my tubby just made me felt worthless out of the sudden. i wonder doesn't she fear den?

my dun bother to explain leads to the misunderstanding to pile up, hence, im required to bear the consequences for losing the one i love.

if time can turn back.. i wish she din meet me.. duno me. so, she wun be feeling miserable for so long. she also wun be feeling so guilty when meeting others behind my back. she also also wun be feeling sad for so long.

i wish... babyangel never came across babydevil's life before.
i wish, i could, but i cant.
the devil's only angel - evolnevaeh -

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:10 AM

the song from you to me

你拨的电话未开机,请稍后再拨
我知道你要给我怎么样的小任性
我知道你要给我这样的臭脾气
我知道你要给我这种那种
i don't wanna被搜寻

你知道我要给你怎么样的大道理
你知道我要给你这样的耍甜蜜
你知道我要给你这种那种
i don't wanna被设定

0932313我爱你是不是你真的没开机
有没有看到我传的短讯
是否应该删除你的记忆
0932313我爱你
你不会狠心到又关机
看着彩色屏幕没反应
最怕就是没有一格收讯
会议中不敢待成静音
就怕在第一时间漏掉你的消息

热恋中多少浓情蜜意
那些储存的讯息每一个字都让人痛心
0932想一想我爱你
你是真的狠下心关机
看着彩色屏幕没反应
也许应该删除我的记忆
不要再想过去
我还是想你
0932

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:07 AM

hiding that in sensual feel.

i promised myself.. cry no more.. but tears flow still. human love to contradict themselves. I believe same goes to me.

heart aching non stop for recalling the past. it's me who lead to this stage, am i right to say? due to the assumption feel of "i thought".

thinking that without explanation, ppl will understand how you feel. thinking that without saying, everything will be resolve. thinking that "you thought so", ppl will think the way you thought.

often asked.. do you feel that her love for you will always remain?

often answered.. yes. i think. that's what i belief.

back to the point.. this is "i thought". not "she answers".

the fear i brought to her.. leads to the insecurity she had for me. on the other hand, leads to my assurance for the level of love i placed to her.

conclusion to make... dun assume.. once again~
to reasure.. it's love that leads us thru till den.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:33 AM

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

an issue arise due to words of anger. have you ever come across your mind, yes.. the person provoke you but please recall.. it's someone you once love deeply for. recall every event with her, recall every single thing she did for you and recall her effort and your effort to maintain the relationship for so long? to classify disgraceful, aint you also being disgraceful for being with her for so long? OR think over.. is disgraceful too strong a word to use? A relationship, be it the past or present, at the very moment you're loving the person, you love with no condition. To regret, you could only blame yourself for loving the wrong person. After all, it was your own responsibility to 'accept' the person you'd a relationship with.

i hold respondsibility for my relationship. never once felt disgraceful on any of my ex regardless im well treated or not. I always believe (or maybe lie to myself) that im really once deeply loved. It's for you to define am I worth loving and not for you to doubt. the first one make me know what's pampering, what's jealousy, what's the feel of being love. the second one make me know what's love and be love, what's happiness, what's endless pampering, what's endless giving in, what's attitude, what's temper, what's sacrifices, what's giving up everything just for the one you love. As a gf, i gave all out to love and protect my love. i hold on to my love. i tried to be fair. i believe in the trust given, and hold tight to the trust in my relationship. It's all coz of love... make me who i am now. Be it, better or worse. =)

Once said, if my love betray the trust I gave, that will be hell. come to a point, whatever said and done, isn't just a simple 'sorry' everything can be simply resolve. human take time to forget. and it's time that allow the wound to cure but scar will remain forever.

im getting really tired.. tired of everything.... sch.. work.. bla bla bla... not enough time for myself.. not enough time for my darling frenz.. not enough. =( my body is protesting for a long break.. how i wish i have.. but my leaves.. seems to be for the sake of exam. -_-

at the same time.. im enjoying.. enjoying the moment with mrs lim and sunzi. enjoying all the craps and past event brought up again and again in our conversations that made us laugh out loud. enjoying mummy michelle's bday celebration. enjoying the gfs meet up. enjoying the ladies meet up. enjoying moment spend with mr. irritant. i cherish the moment we bond together.

next to come. i wana meet my b.itch. my aiai. my kor. nasty. nikki and jean gfs. lao da and lao san ladies again again. beloved mrs lim and sunzi. by the way... shu hui too. been some time ever since i last saw her... hmMMm..

going forward... a lot of event to come by. my birthday, mr. irritant's birthday, nasty's birthday, nikki's birthday, sunzi's birthday, blablablablablabla.

shall i make a wish, make a wish.... wishing for my wonderfull friends to give me the ever most wonderful gifts.. haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:26 PM