+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

that fake smile

i wanted to hide it so much, hide the feel i had for you. over the years.. it doesn't fade off and i have no idea WHY!

it's fated that we cant be together? or neither of us wana give it a try? or maybe, to you, it wasnt love?

my fake smile wun last for long. my heart still stays at the same point. be it, im stubborn. it just dun wish to carry on. waiting for a day, you will be back to explain to me and say im still the one in your heart.

will that day come?
or..
it gonna be another YEARS of waiting and wishing?

does miracle really happens?

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:07 PM

Sunday, October 28, 2007

i always decide not to think too much over it.. but it just seem so hard to achieve. i still mind. i still bother.

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:07 PM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

someone out there.

it's really nice to know there's always someone out there when you thought there's no one else beside you. it's really nice to know he will always be there. it's also nice to know he cares. and it's also nice to know at least im precious to him.

thanks for making me complete.
thanks for letting me feel that im not that bad though.
thanks for telling me im good.
thanks for being there all the time.
thanks for not disappointing me.

and thanks for.. everything.

i really appreciate every single thing you did.

really do appreciate a lot a lot.

=)

i'll not think so much and carry on well.

the one doesn't cherish, so the more shld carry on. he will realise that the one he don't cherish is a person who is willing to love him for who he is and give in everything just for him. apparently, it will be too late just to regret by the time he realise.

他不懂珍惜是他太笨,
有多少人等着
要做我最最在乎的人

我一定会找到珍惜我的人

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:13 AM

你(我)只有一个

你看你眉头都打结了
你熟悉的坚韧到哪去了
别因时光而磨损

快找回那自信的眼神
不要因为爱错了一个人
就否决爱美好的可能

不管如何
都不要忘记你是最好的
要相信
你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个独一无二
他不懂珍惜是他太笨
有多少人等着
要做你最最在乎的人

你只有一个那么独特
你值得你期盼的快乐
当你不再非他不可了
他会知道失去的多难得

一定会找到珍惜你的人
全世界就非要你不可

ANGEL_scribbled * -7:12 AM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

the last time, cry hard, end it, leaving all behind.

take it as it's not love. take it as it's not the one. take is easy.

im all alone after all.

alone always.

ANGEL_scribbled * -9:19 PM

Sunday, October 14, 2007

i asked myself, not to feel pathetic but i guess i just am ya.

maybe it's just me for expecting too much and that explained the disappointment.

maybe it's me who gave up the one who really care for me, love me and dote me. it's me who miss the chance of a surprise bday celebration.

no celebration this yr. no surprises.

it's already very saddening for losing my grandpa. but yet... it's also saddening for the expected one to be.. 'cant bothered abt me.'

it's not that im expecting a return for what i did. but the basic requirement is still needed. yet.. once again.. it's disappointment.

you can be more selfish to just think of yourself. in your life.. it's just you yourself. what else filled your mind? have you really bother the one just beside who need more concern and care than the others' who dun need it?

or is it just me for being such a bitch who is so stubborn?

my closest yet the reason of my heartaches.

and it.. really hurts alot alot alot. i dun wana feel so hurt anymore. i dun wana cry anymore.

my life is all hurt hurt hurt. and i do nth but cry.

when will i ever be happy again?

maybe letting go i will release myself. but why.. cant i just let go? why is it so deep and i chose to hold it yet hide it?

if everything gonna be so simple, i wun be in such a stage now.

i feel like ending it.. and end everything.

ANGEL_scribbled * -1:40 PM

Thursday, October 04, 2007

i asked myself not to cry.
mummy said.. cannot let brother know coz he's having PSLE. so... i shut up.

but alone in the room.. trying to complete my assignment... tears keep rolling down.

plus im sick. bday not impt at all now.

no more celebration.

i want back my grandpa. why heaven being so cruel to me and bro? taking away my grandpa just one day before bro's bday and 4 days before mine?

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:24 PM