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Saturday, November 25, 2006

sick

alright.. i declare sick.

had not been feeling very well since monday.. drag and drag till now.. den finally cannot take it le.. so.. decided to rest at home instead of working.

had been having the thought of going back to study... hmMm.. shld I? been nagging at baby to provide me to study.. haha.. i noe im demanding.. blahx!

i noe i shld be blessed with love.. but somehow, the past doesnt allow me to do so. im the kind of gal whereby i will mind alot about the past de.

recently something real unforturanate happened. xiaomei and jayius broke up. seriously, i thought they are fine after xiaomei's bday.. but seems like it's not. jayius seems to be still at the recovering stage. it hurts when the one you loved so much turn to you and tell you that she dont love you anymore. but whatever it is... IT IS BETTER THAN JUST IGNORE AND AVIOD! - yes. im pointing to someone.

till now, everyone knows jayius's ex is still waiting for him.. but he did not accept her bcoz he still love xiaomei alot... so... the qns that I had been UNHAPPY ABOUT. jayius did not patch back with his ex coz he still love xiaomei. and WHY did SOMEONE able to ACCEPT someone when he said that he STILL LOVE ME? --------- BIG QNS!!

i used to have such a big big big problem with fox. what i mind is the PAST. yesh.. though it's the past, but it did happened before. if im the one that you loved so much... den why even bother to hurt me and left me with such a memory for the past?

alright. enough of said. im just having a BIG qns mark. ahem.

ANGEL_scribbled * -6:02 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

i had a tiring day.. but.. to sum up.. IT'S FUN~~!

got to meet the blurest gal shar.. she is so damn cute i would say.. haha.. and i really hope everything will goes well for her and.... ahem... =) really wished to see both of them together. though another party will be hurt but that's love. it meant to be hurtful and cruel. no point dragging and dragging i would say.

that's why... baby chosen me!! ahem.. =x

oh my... pig sleeping and snoring again.. -_-
i bet there someone out there who love to see him slp and snore as well.. jolly well know who's that. whatever! i know im being sarcastic. blah. like you care? hiakz!
yawnz. i know im being so evil.. i have serious attitude problem. i admit it. oh my.. im getting frm bad to worse.. haha.

practically working very hard currently.. duno why too.. all my time.. either at work or at home. but recently, at ktv pub, at cine, at momo.. blah blah blah.. so tiring......

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:56 AM

Monday, November 06, 2006

to clarify..

im not jealous.. i just dont like you to lie to me. though you feel that to keep it frm me is not to let me think too much.. but.. i still dont like you to lie to me.

be it as frenz or as ex of your's... i never stop you from contacting or meeting her up or anything.. but i just hope... no lies..

im tired of saying abt her too.. but do remember.. you are the one that bring her in between us.. and... even lie to me bcoz of her.. so.. wh at do you think i will feel after i get to know everything?

i trust you by letting me know everything and not lying to me.
i trust you that im the one you really love, the one you need, the one you wana rely on..

you said that im still the one.. den prove to me that im still the one..

i dont like lies.
i dont like excuses.
i dont like.

mind me for that... im not an unreasonable bitch that doesnt allow you to contact her. just that dont lie to me. i can even meet up with her together with you lor (if you want).. like what kind of r/s we are having now with nat and fox.. it's the same lor.

one more lie from you...
you will get it from me...

hmpf!

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:17 PM

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

staring at the blank page.. i duno what to type suddenly.

blessed with love.
blessed with care.

that's what i hope for.

wishes doesnt come thru bcoz will not happen.

my mind is so blank now.. that i duno what to type.

so i shall left those words unwritten and unspoken. keep it in my heart.

SHHhhHh....

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:56 PM

爱海滔滔

试着去努力鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚还是找到了我排山倒海来袭

一定是我不够好所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道

只要你过得很好什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

总有一天你会看到
爱如海掀起惊天巨滔
我会以无坚不摧的力量
让你知道

ANGEL_scribbled * -12:51 PM