+ . . [ [ :: the angel in disguise

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

im turning 21. the big day is coming.

but.. i recalled the promise that was made by someone last year...

my tears roll down.

the promise.. is just a simple words he said. it's not even a promise.

and why did i... treat it so seriously?
such an idiot.

who will pei me till old den?

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:17 PM

我又想起你

我想我还要继续学习
悲伤的时候不闭上眼睛
趁眼泪还没有形成前
就蒸发到空气里
我想我还要继续努力
听完了情歌可以不决堤
那些蠢蠢欲动爱的回忆
会让思念都哭泣
当我想起你
有一种绝望的灰心
总会让街头某个相似背影
惹得忍不住伤心
当我又想起你
是我躲避不及的原因
总以为可以否定你的爱情
却在不成眠的夜
我又想起你

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:16 PM

周杰伦 - 白色风车

白色的风筝
安静的纯真
真实的感觉
梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水
复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着
握住我的手
很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后
能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我
说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么
反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后
能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手
晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远
谢谢你让我听见
因为我在等待永远

这一天
我又想起你

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:09 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

the big day approaching

7th oct. - the celebration.

for those who are coming and is having a headache over my present.. haha.. some tips for you.

1. no necklace
2. no earings
3. no shirt/top
4. no bottom
5. no bags
6. no shoe/heels
7. no liquor
8. no beer
9. no bears

so... simpler to buy presents le hor? haha..

im missing...

1. CASH!
2. handphone (eyeing on N72. hint hint!)
3. ipod nano
4. diamond ring

above are all my wishlist. haha. just joking. just bring in something memorable. im going to copy ling..

EVERYONE.. i mean EVERYONE has to give me a birthday card with special words to me!! PLEASE!! my 21st bday!! be special! =))

celebration will be at my house.
location at upper bukit timah, hume ave, parc palais (function hall)
time will be 6:30pm.

bring along EXTRA clothes. swim suit if you wana swim. ktv room available too. gym also if you wana exercise. haha.

no sabotage! i allow games only! let's have some water party!! weehee!!

im thinking of some theme party.. so.. any ideas? hmmm..

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:16 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

thanks for tearing away the photos. somehow still not happy.. but.. forget abt it than. i've been angry for some days and make your life miserable with my temper le.. so i shall stop it now.

and mind you.. im still angry lor!

ANGEL_scribbled * -3:14 PM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

looking thru my past 50 entries. nothing but pathetic life im leading.

how pathetic.

i miss school. be it, kindergarden, primary, secondary and even poly. i miss it ALL!

a student dont have to think so much.
a student dont have to lead a pathetic life.

regret for not enjoying student life to the fullest.

a r/s..... i dont know how to say anymore.

looking at darling, what i can say is guys sucks! that's why so many gals turn crked. but even than, butch sucks too! so overall, in the end, the only person to rely.... MYSELF.

i hate to rely on myself but that's the only way. gals had to be strong and learn to be independent. yes, i will. and i believe darling also can!! =)

my dearest... pls pls pls. stop crying. stop being sad. stop stop stop. im still here for you. i still love you for who you are. you are the princess i adore. PLS REMEMBER. it will never be easy to carry on and just hate him.. but at least.. bring yourself up, life still goes on. i will be here for you.. always and i believe your beloved bestie and rolly will too.. be glad that there's still lots of ppl caring and worrying for you. a guy is not enough to cover up your life. =)

same thing. i will said it to myself too. i will be strong. i will live my life to the fullest. i will carry on well. and i wun cry hard anymore. for that.. it will only hurt myself and make myself miserable well others.. just happily carry on.

more ladies night. i dont care!
more clubbing, i also dont care!
my dearest frenz, pls start asking me out!!
haha.. my off days are free!!
i wan to club and dance all night!!
yaya...
that's provided i got the energy to do so ar?
haha.

ANGEL_scribbled * -10:35 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

im not a perfect lady
but i yearn to be perfect.

my life gotta be on the track. everything has to be RIGHT. and im the only one to define the "rightness".

yes. stressful to be my bf. i admit.

not a princess to everyone but im the princess of my family. yes again. i admit that im a spoilt child. i gotta admit that i am a "da xiao jie" too.

the first $10K to save before the age of 22.
the first $1m to save before the age of 30.

turning 21 and im feeling so not safe.

it's not enough to support myself and baby. i need to work more.

i wana travel every year and my wish to bring my family out for holiday.
i wana enjoy my life to the fullest without quarrel.
i wana love without stress.
i wana love with secure.
i wan a r/s with trust.
i need baby to learn how to think and be mature.

the thinking might be different as i have my own personal thinking towards certain things. somethings that i felt tat it's 'nth', baby will felt tat it's something 'serious'. to clarify den, either give in or throw temper.

so than... what to do?
stop throwing temper and be nice.

-_-

i gotta complain. work is tiring. piling up of follow ups to do.. madness.

im really tired. tired tired tired.
but i din have any good rest either.
my mind full of rubbish.
and i had been thinking and thinking.

sickening.

ANGEL_scribbled * -11:57 AM

We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over
and that's what destiny is

sorry; i love you ......

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:07 AM

I watched the walls

around me crumble

But its not like

I won't build them up again

So here's your last

chance for redemption

So take it while it lasts

because it will end

And my tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find

a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you

Can't breathe without you

I dream about you honestly

Tell me that its over

Because the world is spinning and

I'm still living

It wont be right if were not in it together

Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you

But at the same time you're the heart that

I call home

I'm always stuck with these emotions

And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

My tears are turning into time

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Tell me that it's over

Over

Honestly tell me

Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that its over

Don't tell me that its over..

ANGEL_scribbled * -5:03 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006

well done charmaine.

you are such an idiot.

others just lie.
and you believed.

bloody hell.

maine's an idiot!

ANGEL_scribbled * -4:32 AM